Loss of blood, in the hospital

Just to document this event, on last Friday morning about 3:00 AM I went to the bathroom and could not get back to bed without my wife's help. The next day after pressure from my wife and neighbors I consented to go to the emergency room. I was suprised to learn that my blood count was down to about 4. something. Since I would not accept a blood transfusion I was taken by ambulance to Methodist Hospital in the Medical Center, Houston, TX where I was encouraged to take a blood transfusion. Again I refusted based on the Bible command to abstain from blood, which is well backed up throught the scriptures. I'll explain that perhaps later, but the bottom line is I spent a week in the hospital, with several dismal outcomes from the Dr. Things such a why check your blood count, if it goes down you'll die and if it goes up you will improve. While that is true it didn't do much for my confidence. I'll admit I was extremely stressed about this and while I'm not afraid of death, I am afraid to leave my family behind, especially my adopted special needs son who is 26 years old and is my best buddy. He would suffer at my loss and probably not come to terms with it for some time. Even though I believe in the resurrection right here on earth, that may not occur for some years, so loved one still suffer being apart. "Faith is the assured expectation of things hoped, the evident demonstration of realitites though not beheld." Hebrews 11:1 Some think that faith in the resurrection means not having fear or anxiety. That scripture quoted above says nothing about that. Facing the doubtful future with fear and anxiety without capitualating to fear and pressure from the world that Satan controls requires faith, but not fearlessness. I admit I was afraid, even for myself, but now that I have been through this I have a better understanding. I am weak and insignificant but I hope I can stay strong and united to the creator Jehovah.